Buenas familia!

Como estan? It's so good to hear from you and hear things are going well!! Dad I'm so glad you are feeling better. Hang in there and take care of yourself! Mom thank you for being strong and loving while going through so much! Renny you're in COLLEGE!!! I can't believe it! :) I'm so proud of my baby sis! Have fun and ENJOY it! I'm so proud of you!! All the people here are so jealous of your beautiful blonde locks!! :) Every time I show them a picture they gasp! Tay I can't believe you are a SENIOR!! You are so grown up!!!

How does it feel?! You are so gorgeous and talented! I'm so glad you're liking dental assisting and doing so good!! How's REACH? Dillbob!! How's my little man?! You excited to get back to school? Are you starting the REACH program? You'll have so much fun! How is it havin Kyle so close!? I bet you love it!! :) How was your week!! Write me a letter bud! I miss you!! :) Thanks for all the bracelets too!! The little hispanic girls here LOVE them!! You better be careful or you'll have lots of girlfriends when you grow up! ;)

 

This week has been kind of scarier with Juarez but they're keeping it under control.  I always feel safe and know that if we be smart and 100 percent obedient we'll be fine. :) This is Heavenly Father's work and it will go forth. I feel honored to be working in this area.  THIS field IS white and ready to harvest! There is so much work to be done every day we hardly know where to start!! I love it here!! (Dad I would love to hear more about the history of this area if you ever get time.  It's something I've been thinking about a lot. )

This week was ABSOLUTELY incredible!! I can't even believe it! It was full of so many miracles!! We've been in a training conference for the mission all week in different areas like las cruces and downtown el paso.  Normally it would only be for the zone leaders and district leaders, but as Hermana Good was pink washing and training she was able to come.  And since there are no other sisters down here for me to be with, I got to come. It was incredible!! :) I LOVE all our elders and my mission president! It was great!!! We had little time at the end of everyday to actually hold appointments but when we did and applied what we learned it worked miracles!!! We found four investigators in four hours!! We're meeting with them again tonight. I can't wait to see the work progress.  This week we're going to hit it hard and give it our all. I know so many good things are going to come.

Our goal has been rebuilding the relationship with the missionaries and wards as apposed to how it was left.  And re-activating and strengthening all those who were members but have fallen away.  Wow. What an absolute miracle.  Yesterday EVERY single family we've been working with was at church. ALL of them. All it took was mostrando un poco de amor. I want to talk of one family in particular.  The McDermeds. I love them with all my heart.  Sister McDermed grew up in Juarez and was a strong member of the church with her husband.  Last year she was diagnosed with cancer, and they've been fighting, but she's almost gone.  Their family's taken a hard blow from it.  Her daughter is married with three kids, but between trying to be home to help, both of them losing their jobs, they were at their ropes end, and church wasn't a priority.  We've been going over lots, to try to strengthen them and show them we're thinking of them.  Brother McDermed has wanted us to meet her so bad, but she's always asleep, and just about gone.  You can tell his heart is breaking for his family.  And he's worn out.  The other night, relatively late after dark, we both felt we just needed to visit them.  We went over to Kristian (their 11 year old daughter) in the living room folding clothes and could hear arguing, two crying little ones (2 and a new born) and Sister McDermed moaning with pain. They were all at their ropes end. Finances were gone, as was composure.  We talked with Kristian, helped her and prayed with her.  That innocent prayer from an 11 year old broke and changed my heart.  I love her so much. We all just hugged and cried on the floor, knowing it would be okay.  And it is! God provides.  We came back the next day to help clean and do what we could.  The family felt strengthened though the situation hadn't changed much.  Sister McDermed was actually awake! We were able to sing her favorite hymns for her and feel the love and spirit in that room. And for the first time in a LONG time, they ALL came to church! They told us today that Sunday night they went home and decided it had been too long, and for the first time in a long time were able to study and pray together as a family.  Even though the situation was the same, THEY changed.  THEY moved closer to God and he blessed them.  Today they were miraculously blessed with finances and support from those around them. There is so much peace and love in that home.

 

WE bring it. God keeps it. Ether 12:6 tells us it is AFTER the trial of our faith that the blessings come.  We are pushed to our limits to learn! But Heavenly Father won't leave you stranded.  Turn to Him and I KNOW he will embrace you with open arms with whatever you are facing.  But YOU must turn to Him.  I pray you will.  So many blessings are in store for you. :) When you are at the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on! :) I'm praying for you.

 

I love you all so much, with all my heart. Thank you for all your love and support.  Most of all for helping, loving and lifting one another. Nothing brings me more happiness than that.  You are constantly in my prayers, and though I wish I could be with you.  I KNOW this is where God wants me to be.  With all my heart.  I feel it EVERY second of EVERY day.  I'm supposed to be here. I love this land. I love these people.  I love this gospel, and being able to see it change others lives.  Most of all I'm honored to be that tool to bring so much happiness to others lives.  Thank you for helping me get here.  For being examples for me. I love you. I love my Savior. I know this work is His.  I KNOW He lives. I know He loves me.  I know there is good to be found by His hand in every day.

Find it.

 

I love you,

 

Hermana Jardine

Tongue... bones... and peppers

Hola familia!
How has your week been!! I didn't have much time to read your emails but I took pictures of them to read throughout the week! Dad, I hope you are feeling better!! I'm sorry you had to go to the hospital! Not a fun experience. Hang in there! I'm thinking of you.  School starts soon doesn't it?! I'm excited for you all!!! Dillon's a big kid at Greenville! I can't believe it!!! Are you excited bud!? I'm sorry I've been behind on letters, we've spent a our p-days mostly cleaning our apartment.  But I will send one to you today and do lots better this week! Lauren are you ready to start college!? Utah state will be so fun for you!!! :) You will do so great!!! Hang in there and take a breather and enjoy the journey too! :) The end of the road isn't as worth it unless you enjoy walking the path.  Taylor how are you! Thank you both for your emails.  I miss you all more than anything!! You excited to be a Senior!! LIVE IT UP!!!! You only get to be a Senior once, make as many memories as you can!!!
Well this week has been AWESOME!!! To start off, as for weird things I've eaten this week, I've added tongue, some soup full of bones and mystery meat, and my first serrano and jalapenos.  HOT!!!! Holy cow is my mouth having to adjust to it.  Haha, they all laugh at me because something normal for them is BURNING for me, I've never drank more water in my life haha. :) But I love it. Someday I'll no longer be a gringa! ;)  They do say the peppers help with the spanish. ;)
I cannot believe the people here. I love them so much!! They are so absolutely humble and loving.  Those who have absolutely nothing are those most willing to give.  So many have opened their doors to us and fed us when they hardly have enough for their family.  I feel guilty sometimes.  I love these people so much.  I'm so glad they will be close enough to visit often even after I get home.
We are finally organized, clean, and hitting the pavement! :) Mom thank you for the package of supplies!!! It was greatly appreciated.  I had to use some funds to get our apartment there, but we are FINALLY clean and livable :) haha. We have been working hard this week and have atleast contacted every name on our lists from the bishops (our english branch was made a ward!), ward members and the stacks of referrals found in our apartment.  We have come to truly love and know our wards, brought many back to church and are now starting to do more tracting.  Or area isn't extremely big and we're hoping if we get to stay here long enough we can tract every street.  I absolutely love it here!! And I love this work!!
It's been coming along so well!!! We have two companionships of Elders in our district and last week between each of them 4 people were baptized and we were able to help with! It was so great!!! I love this work!!!
We've had so many miracles this week I can't even think of which one to write about.  The work is coming along and half the time it comes to us! For instance, this week we've been working a lot with the landlord and maintenance workers to clean our apartment.  One of which, Armando (50's) has been there to help with every need we have had and some we didn't notice.  He is so kind and helpful and patient with my Spanish.  He is respectful in all he does and took the time to learn our names.  From being in our apartment he knows who we are and what we do.  He is a Jehovah's Witness but he has never been pushy or aggressive.  The other day as we were leaving and he was spraying for cockroaches, I was thanking him for all he did before we left when he surprised me by asking for a Book of Mormon.  I was so surprised and immediately got one for him.  We were able to talk about it for a few minutes and then we had to leave for an appointment.  We talked to him today again and he's been reading it.  He is one of the best people I know and is so kind and giving to all those around him.  I'm praying for him.
Another experience this week, as we were pulling into the church parking lot for district meeting, the Elders were parked and out talking to a man in the parking lot.  They referred him to us, since he's in our area and we set up an appointment before he left.  After he did, they explained to us the situation.  This man found the church on his own and asked for the missionaries to visit him. We're excited to meet them.
The field is white and ready to harvest.  I know that is true.  Every day we face so much rejection, but when you find those that are ready, they are READY.  And I have absolute faith that even those who aren't ready, with enough time patience and love will come around. I have met so many absolutely incredible people.  I wouldn't rather be anywhere else.
Keep strengthening those around you and treating others as the Savior would.
I KNOW this church is true.  I am honored to be a part of this great work! I know I have the power to do so much more and I'm so grateful for the time to do so.
I love you all so much.
Be strong and remember who you are, who loves you.

Les quiero,
Hermana Jardine

Pinkwashing. A BIG HELLO FROM THE BORDER

Hola mi Querida Familia!
 I'm here, I'm Safe and I LOVE it! :) First off, let me apologize, my english is getting sloppy! I'm in that wierd transition where I can't quite speak spanish but I can't speak enligh anymore, jaja.
We flew in and spent a night at the mission home in Albuquerque and got to see the temple.  I love President and Sister Miller! They are great people!!! :) Then Tuesday morning was transfers!! I met my trainer, Sister Good from Idaho Falls.  She lives up to her name! :) I love her so much.  I'm her first non-native spanish companion and she is a pro! :) She's hilarious and we love laughing and having adventures but know how to work. I love her. :) We were assigned to 'Pinkwash' (Which means they are sending sisters into a former 'Elder' area.  And we are both being transferred to a new area together.  Sister Good came from Colorado and Santa Fe.) in Socorro Texas and loaded up our gear to head south, about 5 hours south of Albuquerque, just south of El Paso, Texas.
Lets just say pinkwashing was fun. :) I have NEVER been more grossed out by an apartment. Imagine the worse and you have it. :) But we've loved the adventure. Piles of dirty dishes, laundry and mystery items.  Tarantulas, cochroaches and frogs, all dead AND alive.  Mold.... you name it. :) Ha. It's been fun turning it around! :)

We live in a little city called Horizon City and we LOVE IT! :) Wow it is another world down here! We are DEFINATELY the minority.  EVERYONE speaks spanish.  The other day when we were in walmart I counted ONE caucasion other than us and it was packed! It's helped with spanish so much! We think, eat and breathe spanish! The street signs, billboards and EVERYTHING are in spanish.  I'll attatch some pictures. I feel like I'm back in Guatemala. I love it! :)
We are literally minutes away from the border.  I see the city lights of Juarez, Mexico out my bedroom window every night.  One day we got lost and almost ended up in Mexico jaja. :)
We cover an English branch, the "Socorro" branch (which is mostly a hispanic bilingual group) and a Spanish ward, the "Mission Trail Ward".  I love the wards already! Everyone is so close and kind.
When we got here, our area book was empty, and similar to our apartment. We had piles of referrals given by the church untouched from previous missionaries, investigators lost, and converts that have gone inactive.
We started organizing and working with the Bishops in our wards to turn things around.  Our first goal was to get to know ward members and strengthen the unity.  And to bring back those who have gone inactive.  I have never seen so many miracles work so quickly.  We spent all last week visiting families and contacting referrals.  This sunday, almost all of our inactive friends came to church. And we love and know our wards already.  And they have given us so many referrals! There is too much work and not enough time in the day!!! I love it! How incredible! I'm so excited and honored to be part of this work. I'll tell you a quick story.
The other day we contacted the the Mora family and were trying to get them to come to church. They were amazing people and such a strength to us! Immediately after we said the closing prayer, Sister Mora gave us the name of her neighbor to contact.  With no more information than she used to be friendly and isn't anymore, that she's probably going through a hard time.
We went to her trailer immediately after and were amazed at what we found.  Belen German was a former strong member.  But she's been gone so long she wasn't even on any records we have.  Her daughter Brenda split up with her husband in California and came to live with her mom bringing her two little boys. At first they seemed busy, but we showed them genuine love and concern and I'm amazed at how things changed. They were tired, stressed, and told us more of the problems in their lives, including other children gone astray, issues in Juarez (SCARY city).  You could feel their hearts aching.  The spirit was so strong as we testified of the gospel.  I was as bold as I have ever been and wanted with every bit of my heart to help them.  I helped calm the three year old and talked with him about the gospel and the atmosphere changed.  They want to do and be better. They just stressed.  I know with every inch of my soul that the gospel can change us from the inside out. It can help us with every problem we face!!! I am amazed at how it changed them in one night. I invited them to come to church.  And they commited, and in turn invited US over for dinner.  I have never felt the spirit so strong, nor fallen in love with people instantly, in a little third world trailer on the border of Mexico.
I love this work.  With all my heart I know this is where Heavenly Father wants me to be.  I will work hard and give it my whole heart.
I am excited to see the progress we can make.
I love you all so much and you are in my prayers every night.
Please be strong, thank you for your letters.  Nothing means more to me than that.

les quiero,
Hermana Jardine

Pictures:
Goodbye MTC!!

PS from Poster.

Sister Jardine leaves the MTC this coming Monday.
Which means:

This week will be the last week you can get letters to her through the MTC.

Both addresses are listed below and to the right.

Take a few moments and WRITE HER a Letter!!!! :)
I know She LOVES to hear from each one of you!


IT WILL SERIOUSLY MAKE HER ENTIRE WEEK!!

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Hola Familia!

Here it is! My last p-day at the MTC. I can't believe it!!! I fly out monday morning! I meet at the travel office at 5 am then head up to the airport.  My flight is around seven something I think? So I should be calling between six and seven in the morning? Sorry :S I land in Albuquerque at 10 am and then I'm off!! :) It all begins!!! I can't wait to hear all of you! :)

I will admit, I will miss the MTC. I have come to love it here so much!!! I can't explain it! I've made so many wonderful friends and it has become HOME to me! I love it!

So last week for p-day was the most incredible day here yet!  We went to clean the temple and instead got to put together and install the new chandeliers.  Wow. There aren't words.  What a sacred opportunity.  How beautiful.  It was something I will absolutely never forget.  Being in those rooms made me realize how precious they are.  How much I want a temple marriage someday and how I want to live worthy to return to live with God and all my loved ones, especially you. I am so grateful to have an eternal family.

This week has changed in me a desire to change lives and do missionary work.  We focused on the hardest part for me, commitments.  It's easy for me to show love and hard for me to be bold. 

But this week I learned "Overbearance is Boldness without Love".  That is my goal.  It's something I'm working on. And so, today I want to extend a commitment to you, my dear family, and anyone else reading this e-mail.

Will you take time TODAY to genuinely pray?

The most distinct memory I have of prayer is one that Lauren probably doesn't even remember, but it's always stuck with me.  Her first year of girl's camp, we all went to bearlake and I had the opportunity to stay in the same tent as her.  One particular night it was pouring with rain, thundering and lightening, the wind was crashing at our tents.  None of us could sleep and we were all a little scared.  Lauren, her cute 12 year old self, in her timid faithful voice said we should offer a prayer. 

She said it, with absolute faith, truly TALKING with Her Heavenly Father.  Calmness filled our tent and though the circumstances took time to change, our hearts did instantly.  Her faith gave us all peace.

We shouldn't call upon God only when we are in desperate need.  He is your father in Heaven.  We can't have a conversation with Him unless we talk with Him.  We have time, make time, He gave you time. He gave you life. 

Stay close to Him.  Pick a time that works for you and pour out your heart to Him.  He is so much nearer than you realize.

If nothing else, this is what I've learned most at the MTC, prayer.

I've finally learned how to communicate with my father in heaven.  He is so near, every minute. I can feel Him behind me, encouraging me.  I can feel His presence as a real person.  He IS real! He loves you! Talk you Him.

Will you pray, today?

I promise you he hears you and will bless you.

Just as with Lauren, the circumstances may take time to change or may not change.  Prayer is aligning our will to God's, expressing our fears and concerns and letting him comfort guide and teach us.

I beg with all my heart for you to pray.

You are in my prayers constantly as well.

I love you with all my heart, I can't wait to talk to you.

Hermana Jardine

P.S. Lauren and Taylor!!! Send Elder Clipp and Tipton a letter back! It'll make their day! You have to send it by tomorrow though cause they leave Monday as well!!

-I see Tanner Milne ALL the time! What a sweet kid!!! He was so excited the first day he got here!! He's an excellent missionary!!! Haha. He was so happy! I almost hugged him but that was the best handshake ever! What an amazing family!!

-I will send a package home at the end of the week with some stuff I won't need in the field and some stuff for the fam!!! Including letters from me and Sister Carter! ;) And Mckall's scripture case!

-JJ I'm preparing the MTC FOR YOU AND HAVE A NOTE WAITING!!!!! :)

-Jamie thanks for your sweet letters!!! I love them and they encourage me so much!!!!!

-KOLBY FALOR CONGRATS ON THE MISSION CALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) I'm so excited to speak spanish with you! I'm so proud of how far you've come in the last two years and can only imagine where the next two will lead us!!!

-Maddy Thanks for your letter I love you!!!!

-Tell Brittany I LOVE HER!!!!!! I need her address!!!

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Hola Familia!

Como fue su semana? How was your week? I haven't heard from you in a while I can imagine its busy! I hope you are all doing well! :) You are always in my prayers and I love you so much! When does school start? How's summer going? Dad's ward? I love you all and wish I could give you a BIG hug!! :)

So sorry it's so early! ;) Nothin like laundry and emailing at 6:30 AM. Today is p-day but it's going to be busier than any other day of the week! We're cleaning the temple today and teaching our investigator so it's lots of studying and hard work! But on top of that, we're about doubling our Zone size today!!! :) We're getting TWO new districts! Bringing our branch size up from 36 to 60.  Needless to say we've got a lot to do today!! :) I LOVE welcoming the new missionaries and helping them love the MTC. I love it! :)

SPEAKING of new missionaries!!!!! Sister Carter is doing AMAZING! :) She is a strength to ME! I can't believe how lucky I am to get to see her so often!!! Last p-day my companions and I were studying outside when I saw little Kyle Carter (not so little anymore)'s head bobbing up and down at the crosswalk.  I got to watch as mandy said her goodbyes and walked towards me.  She didn't see me until she was right in front of me and we just froze! I've never had such an amazing hug in all my life!! We were both crying and laughing!! I felt like the sons of Mosiah reunited again!! :) I got to wave at Steph Roger and Kyle from the distance.  It was so good. So incredible! I feel so blessed to have been there right when she got there!!! On top of that I can't believe how lucky I am to see her all the time! It's SO rare!!! But we have ALL the same meal times, gym times, P-day, and she lives 3 doors down from me!!! :) We get to spend time together everynight!! She has amazing roomates and a great companion who love her! She's doing amazing!!!! :) And we're LOVING it!!! :) I'll send pictures soon. It's so fun to think of all those times at EFY across the street and realize where we are now. What we're doing! We LOVE this week.

One thing dad asked about is what teaching is like now.  How it's changed over the years.  We had a fireside this week and I guess it's changed a lot! And STILL changing for us! They've gone away completely from memorizing anything.  They want it to be in our own words.  For a while they changed the order to talk of Christianity before the restoration but then saw how it halted progress.  That would make us hardly different from any other church.  Which we are. We're living. It's restored. It's true. I am so grateful for Joseph Smith and Thomas S. Monson.  They changed the order back and soon after came out with the Preach my Gospel program in 2004.  It's now being revised and even more changes are being made for us now.  They want us to teach even MORE in our own words and by the spririt.  To listen and help people with their individual needs. To teach them how the gospel can help them NOW.

It's so crazy to walk into an appointment having no idea what will be taught or how it will go.  But knowing you are prepared, have studied and God will direct you.  I am amazed at how incredible every appointment is! Somehow we're always able to understand the spanish and know what to say in return to help and encourage.  It is REAL!

 

I LOVE my mission!!! Its flying by too quickly! I get my flight plans this weekend. And I am anticipated to fly out on June 2nd.  I get to call from the airport so I'll let you know when in my next email!

It's going by too fast! I absolutely LOVE the MTC and all the people here!!! I will miss it SO much. But I'm so excited for the field!!!! I can't tell you how much!!! I can't believe how far we've come with teaching and the language. It's amazing and nothing makes me more happy!! I LOVE spanish!! I always have. I think back on my life and experience such as 'Wallagoop' in Kindergarden :) Nogalas Mexico on our family trip visiting Cindy, Jon & Jeralyn.  Incredible experiences with Guatemala and how it changed my life! Even the latin culture I came across in the ambulance, ER, and REACH program.  I LOVE the people. It's always been instilled in me and a feel like being here is just unfolding it.  I LOVE the language and it's coming along great!!! The gift of tongues is real!!!! I feel so blessed and lucky!!!!

My favorite scripture has become Proverbs 3:5-6.  It's become my life motto.  Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not unto your own understanding! He WILL direct your paths! But ONLY if you follow!! I can imagine times are hard sometimes.  But I love you so much family.  I feel His love for you.  Always trust in Him and guide Him! He wants to bless you!! I know He is REAL. He is THERE. The great message of the restoration and atonement is True!!! I love you so much and pray for you every day. 

Se Fuerte!!!!

Les Amo,

Hermana Jardine

 

P.S. Tell everyone thank you SO much for the letters!!! I feel so lucky to have so much incredible encouragement!!! I am sorry if I don't get many out today, I won't have much of a p-day till next week!!!

 

P.P.S.S. could you try forwarding again?

 

Thank you!!! I LOVE YOU!!! I can't wait to call you in a week and a half!!! :)

 

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Hey my favorite family :)

Mandy (or should I say Sister Carter) comes in today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) I absolutely cannot wait! It feels like Christmas! Don't worry, I WILL find her today! :) I know it has to be immensely hard on her and her family.  I love them as my own and let them know I am thinking of them and they're in my prayers as is she.  Don't worry. :) I'll take care of her and she will LOVE it!!!!! We will send you pictures soon! And we will be home before you know it! I should get my travel plands the end of next week.  I can't believe it!!! I am excited but sad to leave! I LOVE it here! Mandy will too. :)

Well, I have another companion!! :) Her name is Hermana Callie Payne and she went to high school with Mckall & Scott. She is going to Argentina.  She was in the district above us, but unfortunately everyone else recieved their visa's and left last week but her.  She has a lot of patience.  We are now the oldest district and we're a trio! :) Probably the most diverse trio when it comes to personalities :) ha. But I love it!

Our new district came in on wednesday and I LOVE them!!! They are so great! 12 elders heading to Guatemala and Chile (Don't worry, I'm gettin em excited for the best place in the world!! ;) 2nd to new mexico and home). One is even Elder Oakden from none other than Bristol Road in good ol' Logan!

Sadly though, it's been a hard week.  When they got here, I really felt like they were struggling and felt like we as a companionship should teach them as companionships and help and strengthen them through the transition.  We didn't get to the companionship that needed it most before one of our Elders went home.  He was shy, reserved and home sick.  I will forever wonder if there is something I could have said.  I KNEW someone was struggling and knew I could help.  I feel in my heart I could have.  I know his life will never be quite the same.  I will never again wait to heed a prompting.

It made me want to be a better missionary.  To those in my coming field and those around me.

I have a deadline.

But I CAN make a difference.  I wish he could have seen and felt what I do!!! He would never dream of leaving this great place or work! But I suppose it's the same with the gospel and those hidden from the truth.  I wish they could see know and feel as I do.  But all men have agency and must learn for themselves.  I cannot and would not change that.  But I CAN make a difference.  I can show, teach, lift and inspire more than I am.  I can invite.

I will better fulfill my purpose.

On Sunday we had a devotional from Jenny Oaks Baker and a visitor in the audience, her father Dallin H. Oaks.  It was ABSOLUTELY incredible!!!!!! I LOVE her! She is an incredibly talented violinist and played for us for over an hour.  There is no way or form I feel the spirit stronger than through music.  I'm moved beyond words. 

Throughout college, all those mundane days filled with hours of coursework and deadlines ahead, I remember playing her songs over and over again.  It brought a level of comfort and support no other source could.  Those lonely long hard days were instead days where I could feel the Savior encouraging me along.  To work harder, to give my best to my work.  They were days filled with satisfying work, knowing I was doing as the Savior wanted me to with all my ability. 

Through those hours and hours of hymns, faith and hard work I grew close the the Savior.  Those songs bare testimony of wirds I couldn't even begin to say.  To sit there on sunday with those songs that got me through so many hard times and helped me truly feel my Saviors love and hand in my life was an absolute honor.

Ever time I studied over the past two years I had her violin as my companion.  Those songs filled my ipod and heart, cheesy as that sounds :)

More than anything it was an hour of reflection of the Lord's hand in my life.  To see where I began that first day of college, to where I am sitting now.  God LIVES! I KNOW he's guided me and I will follow him anywhere! He is real. He is near. Moments like that reach beyond the veil for me.  How could I ever doubt?

Through those songs I felt the nearness of my Savior.  Though I had no idea what tomorrow or the next semester would bring. And those familiar tunes comforted me this week even though I don't know my future.  I don't know how many children I'll have or what my struggles will be.  When I'll marry or to who.

I don't know what I will do with my life after I serve.  I don't know what New Mexico will be like, what my mission holds.

I don't even know what tomorrow holds.

But I know who holds it.

I love my Savior with all my heart. 

I will follow Him anywhere.

I know without a doubt He LIVES! And wants me HERE.

And so I'll be here.

I love you.

Times up but I'll write more next week!

It's a busy day so sorry If not many letters get out.

I love you all!!!!

Love,

Hermana Jardine

 

P.S. Tell Jer and Heidi congrats! Jamie I got your letters and LOVE them!!!! :) I will write you so soon! JJ you will be amazing!!!!! I can't wait for you to get here! Tell Mckall I'd love to get scott's case just tell me a color!