Wednesday, December 22, 2010

The Best Christmas Ever

Christmas came early for me. 

Last thursday we had a tri-zone Christmas Zone Conference with the northern half of the mission.  It was absolutely incredible!!! I love my mission so much!! We have the best missionaries who truly have become my brothers and sisters.  We got up at 4:30 am and caught the 6 am train down to Albuquerque.  We spent the day with President and Sister Miller, and all of our fellow brothers and sisters.  Incredible talks, musical numbers, a fun talent show, and a great Christmas dinner.  Christmas ham. ;) Reminds me of you guys.  Then we got spoiled and santa left us all our Christmas packages.  Haha.  You guys spoiled me! I could hardly carry it all back on the train! We recieved the greatest gift from President and Sister Miller, that I guess most wouldn't see as a gift, but It changed me.  He gave us a document on becoming consecrated missionaries and people.  It focuses on our desires, who we really are, and the outward effects of that.  It gave be a great desire to strive to be even better, and I can see such a difference in the work, those around me, my life and future.  I've never felt so good. 
After wards we got to take the Hogwarts express, :) haha, the 'Railrunner', a double-decker train back to Santa Fe with all the Elders up around us.  And OH did it snow!!!!! It's only snowed once here before, and only stuck around a night.  But on thursday, it SNOWED, the train was stuck for a period of time, and we were caked with it. It felt so much like Christmas. 

And the time was such a miracle.  In the hours of stalling, Sister Perez and I were able to really get to know the people around us.  They became our very close friends.  It was neat to see all their stories unfold, college kids coming home for Christmas. People visiting old friends.  Parents going home from a work commute.  Everyone has a story.  I'm honored to be able to read a chapter of theirs.  We had a great Christmas party on the train sharing 'Biscochitos' :) yummy cookies a lady brought and talking of Christmas and the Savior.  It was an absolutely incredible day.  And the Elders were able to teach a first lesson to one of our train referrals for them last night.  They were so kind and invited us all over for dinner this thursday.  I am amazed at how Heavenly Father works.  We can hardly keep up with the blessings he is giving us!

Thank you SO much for the GPS! I can't tell you how much easier it makes the work!!! I LOVE you guys.  I feel absolutely spoiled, and I know it will help so much.  We are more organized now and can work even harder.  And you guys are so sweet. I feel so absolutely spoiled to have been given so much.  I can't tell you how many families you have blessed with the things you sent.  And I feel absolutely spoiled!! haha, and the sweats came on a perfect day! I had some warm jam'jams for our first snow-day. :)

This week has and will be absolutely incredible.  I don't feel jipped at all for Christmas, instead, I feel so absolutely blessed.  Especially to remember the real meaning of Christmas.  We had 'our Christmas' early last thursday.  And I will spend Christmas Eve and Day getting to do the things the Savior would if he was here.  Giving gifts to those who need them, giving meals to the homeless and work waiting shelters.  Blessing families we know need it, visiting widows and the nursing home, and making some good Mexican Tamales. :) And most of all, I can't wait to talk to you all!!!!!! :) It's strange, but being away from you has made me appreciate you all a thousand times more than I could imagine.  And this Christmas means more being away, because it reminds me that Christmas isn't about gifts or materialistic things.  It's about family.  It's about the Savior.  My greatest gift will be spending some precious time talking to you, and serving as the Savior would. 
The best Christmas ever.  :)
 
I wish I had the time to tell you all of the incredible stories of how the work is booming.  Investigators missionaries have taught for years that we are finally making progress with.  People coming out of the woodwork completely ready for the gospel.  Just an hour ago, we got a call from the Elders to quickly contact a referral with a beautiful native american lady, I love her! (a single woman so they couldn't go alone, and didn't have notice to get a member).  It was amazing.  She had the hardest of nights last night.  Her life fell apart and she became completely alone, to the point of breaking.  She texted a friend asking for some prayers in the middle of the night.  Instead, that friend, who is a member called the elders this morning and we were all able to go over and create a lifelong friendship.  Embracing a complete stranger in her tears and sorrow and lifiting her, I feel absolutely honored.  She is incredible.  You could see her soul healing.  I could feel the power of missionary work as every one of us said exactly the thing that needed to be said.  The spirit is real, it is so strong.  She is going to be baptized on January 29th and I am honored to call her my friend.

This gospel is incredible.

I love my mission and wouldn't trade it for anything.

I love you all so much and pray for you always.

I'll talk to you Saturday.
 
Sister Jardine

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

D&C 24:8, les quiero muchisimo mi querida familia, y Dios les ama tambien. El esta aqui para ustedes.

I'll admit I'm a little speechless today.  I'm just at peace and contemplative.  I'm so glad to hear how you all are doing.  I love you so much and want you to know you are constantly in my prayers. 
 
I love checking my email and hearing from you, Mom and Dad especially. Your letters mean the world to me.  You encouragement, love, support, and hearing how you are doing makes my day.  I think one of the greatest lessons I've learned on my mission is my love for you, my family.  How much you truly mean to me.  How much I admire love and respect each of you.
 
The more I'm in Santa Fe the more I can't get over how beautiful it is, especially the plaza.  I'm not sure on much of it's history and we have limited resources, but Dad I would LOVE to learn more about it if you find stuff on it! The whole city just feels like it has a story to tell.
 
Santa Fe is very different from El Paso, and so our approach has been very different.  It's got kind of a bad repore, but we're hoping to change that.  To be honest, we've spent this week showing love.  Heart attacking member's, less-active's and investigators doors, writing thank you cards, and giving service.  Our branch is very small, and struggling.  But I am honored to be here.  We've been more pulling weeds from the vineyard rather than harvesting, but it feels good.  It's good to be preparing good ground so we can plant good seeds.  I've learned much about my Savior here, about loving those that don't love you, and not giving up.  Santa Fe is different, but I love it.
 
Our Spanish branch is very small, in Relief Society it was us, the Presidency, and one woman.  We teach Sunday School and I am now the Primary Pianist.  Thank you for helping me develop the talent! I'm far from good, but they need the help badly.  It's strange to have just met the people and to already be so depended on.  I'm honored to be here and grateful for the opportunity to strenghten these people. 
 
We have a few investigators, and they're moving slowly.  They've been investigating the church for years.  But already I've become close friends with them.  One of them is a family from Guatemala, Ligia and Juan Carlos (& their 3 daughters and son, just like us).  Sister Knight did hair before her mission so this week we did Ligia's for free.  It's been so fun to talk to them and do service for them, leaving them wondering why we did what we did.  I love their family.  It's amazing to be able to relate to them so well too, They grew up in Antigua, which I've been to multiple times, and even been to the market their family owns.  It's a crazy connection.  I love them so much.  I'm praying so hard for them.
 
One of our other investigators is Nery, Amariris, and their grown daughters, he's from Honduras and she's from El Salvador.  He owns a sushi restaurant in downtown Santa Fe, it's NICE.  They are VERY nice people! They signed up to feed us, and to our surprise, they took us to the restaurant, we sat at the sushi bar and he made us whatever we wanted to try.  VERY nice people.  I love them already! They are so different from people in El Paso, people here are so well off.  And less willing to change.  No one is married, and they take their time in their decisions.  But I love them already as my close friends, and feel like we are leaving them better than we found them.  And hoping for the best!  I know Heavenly Father put us in Santa Fe for a reason. 
Let me know if you have any finding ideas! :) Knocking doors isn't making much progress, but we're pressing forward and continuing! :) 
 
Tonight we're visiting an old widowed member in the nursing home. He's such a sweet man and I love him so much! He reminds me of a cute hispanic version of Grandpa Gardner, mis-matching flannel and all. :) It's been so good just to put a smile on his face.  We decided we're going to visit anyone who never gets visited there as well.  We'll continue loving and serving all those around us. 
 
I'm honored for this time to be here serving in the Lord's vineyard, I know with all my heart without a doubt Heavenly Father called me here at this time in my life to serve Santa Fe.  I know I'm doing what he wants me to.  I love my Savior with all my heart and will follow Him anywhere.  He has led me through so much.  I am such a different person than I feel I was before.  So much has changed, refined.  I feel stronger, more pure, cleaner, and have more love in my heart for the world than I could ever have imagined.  I know this gospel is true with my whole heart and soul, nothing doubting.  I know I will forever be changed for the better because of my mission.
 
A scripture that gave me much peace this week is D&C 24:8.  He loves you.  He is with you.  There is a purpose for absolutely every trial in your life.  Continue to find it.  Seek to understand it. 
 
TAY have a BLAST in D.C. you will love it!!! You better send me pictures!!!! Take it in!!! You are such a beautiful strong girl, you keep chasing your dreams and becoming whoever you want to be. :) I love you and want you to know I am always here, I consider you one of my best friends and am so grateful you are my sister!
 
Ren I am so happy you are loving college and your roomies! How is everything? Any good dates? I can't believe how much you've grown up! Amaris says hi.  Everyone here envies your blonde hair! :) I love you so much.  :) Keep having fun and keep showing that beautiful smile.  Life is to be enjoyed, not endured!  You're doing great!
 
Dill, I want you to know I love you so much big guy.  You would love it here.  I promise someday after I'm home we'll come back, ride the train, find some cool animals and check out the indian stores, deal? :)
 
Mom, thank you so much for all you do for me.  You are truly selfless and one person I can always count on.  I love you so much and pray for you often. You are so strong.  Thank you for all the selfless sacrifice you give to me and those around you.
 
Dad I am so proud of you and can't describe the love I have for you in my heart.  I know you are spent in life and worn thin at all angles.  You are a strong soul.  Heavenly Father has the torch of the refiners fire blowing in your direction right now, but I know He has a purpose, a reason.  And whether you see it or not, you've changed.  You all have.  You're stronger.  More dependent upon the gospel, more aware of the purpose of life.  He loves you so much.  I love you so much.  I wouldn't change one thing about the past year, it's helped us grow. 
 
It's strange to think a year ago I was about to graduate from college, I never could have imagined what 2010 could bring.  I remember finishing school and feeling so lost.  I remember praying with all my heart for my Heavenly Father's direction for what to do with my life.  To find a good husband, a good job, and whatever else He wants me to do, be and accomplish.  I remember reading Proverbs 3:5-6 and feeling that was my answer.  I kept trying to do what made sense in my head, to my understanding, but I knew I needed to follow him.  I wanted to follow him.  January to June was a trying testing point trying to seek His guidance.  Now looking back, I KNOW it all happened for a reason.  Heavenly Father guided me.  I feel so close to Him.  I love Him so much.  I know He will continue to guide me and all who seek Him. 
 
If the solutions to our problems were simple, we would not be able to stretch our souls. 
 
Keep stretching.  Keep growing.  Follow Him.
I know if you put Him first, everything will fall into place.
I wouldn't change a thing.
I love you and pray for you daily.
 
Your baby girl,
Sister Lindsay Jardine
 
P.S. Give Tate and Boston a hello from me! WELCOME to the best family on earth!!!! :)
Love you all and have a great week!!!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

One Day . . . I'm Going to Santa Fe

 First night in Santa Fe

 Streets of Santa Fe

Fall!!!

Tracting

Sister Knight

Sister Knight

They ran out of pumpkins. 


Hey Hey from Santa Fe!!
Happy Halloween!!! Dillon how was being a Dragon!? :) You guys have to send pictures!!! Of Dillon's costume, Lauren's Apartment and Taylor's hair too! I'm so glad to hear you guys are doing great!!!
Renny you need to write!! I've missed hearing from you!!! Tay's beat you with letters ;) jk.  I'm SO glad you are loving college and your apartment! Send some pictures of your roomies! I want to hear how you are, what you think of everything. I miss ya! 
Tay I am so sorry you got a ticket! I guess we each need one to learn.  Hang in there.  It'll be okay.  Keep smiling. :) I'm excited for your close up!! Are you excited!!! When is it! Thank you for your letter! I'm sending you one back.  I really appreciate it, your guys's letters mean a lot. 
Mom, thank you so much for all your support.  I love you so much.  You've become such a close friend and someone I really admire.  I am so glad you're mom.  I can't thank you for your stalwart support.  When everything else comes and goes, I've learned family is eternal.  I love you so much and always will. I love you.
Dad, you are in my prayers, I am always thinking of you.  Your advice, legacy, and all you've taught me.  Keep hanging in there and keep on keeping on.  You are always in my prayers. 
Santa Fe is BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOW was it a culture shock.  El Paso is in its 70's and then I came here and realized it's actually fall!! I didn't think I realized Christmas was coming, I was just stuck in summer.  Haha.  I got here and was FREEZING! :) But it is breathtaking and beautiful! I am so used to the humility of El Paso that this is a complete culture shock.  Everything is so nice here.  It's like a mix between Park City, The east coast and a Santa Fe twist.  It really reminds me of Georgetown Virginina, the historic town but how it's now become really ritzy.  The fall leaves are beautiful!!! It has a COMPLETELY different feel than El Paso.  Even the people.  In El Paso, I was in the minority.  Almost EVERYONE was from Juarez Mexico (which IS really scary right now.  So many stories.  But we are okay.  We're protected, as are the missionaries in Juarez.) Here is completely different.  People are here from all over!!! Investigators and members are from Honduras, El Salvador, Mexico All over south and central america, and believe it or not..... GUATEMALA! :) It's been such an amazing connection to people!!!!! To know what their home country, town and culture is like.  Oh it is amazing.  And SO neat to know people from all over.  It's neat to recognize their different accents and traditions.  That's probably one of the biggest changes in coming here, realizing how far spanish has come.  I feel so comfortable with it.  I LOVE it!!!! It's easier than english sometimes.  I am so grateful for the opportunity to learn it.  I'm far from perfect but It's not foreign anymore.  It's like a light switch is on now.  I love it.
Santa Fe is a little more difficult as far as the work goes compared to El Paso which is expected but good.  I'm honored to be serving here and to be blessed with a challenge.  The work is really dead and the people are much colder, but we're excited to turn things around.  I LOVE my companion.  She is SO enthusiastic and alive with the work!!  Even though it's been hard, we are happy and working hard.  :) Doing lots of service and just trying to show Santa Fe some love, if nothing else to leave people better than we found them and with a good taste in their mouth.  We were very blessed in El Paso.  With the humility of the economy and happenings in Juarez, everyone was ready for the gospel, it was all we could do to keep up with the work!!!! Here, people are well off and don't have a need for us.  But we're working hard and positive.  :) It's such a good feeling just to help someone, be happy and loving, and leave them wondering what makes us how we are.  We're definately pulling more weeds and tilling the ground here in the orchard rather than picking fruit, but it's still very rewarding and I know things will eventually turn around in Santa Fe.  I love it here.  And I truly don't think there could be better missionaries here!!!! We have two sets of English Elders and ourselves in our District.  They are amazing Elders and so enthusiastic!  They are already great friends and we have fun working hard! It's strange to be teaching and speaking only spanish, but it's helped me so much.  I LOVE the work here!
Spanish Sisters.  There are few.  Come April I will be the second oldest which is crazy! Chances are I will be training soon, maybe before that.  Sister Good is training a brand new Sister Batchcoff ?sp still in Horizon City.  The joke was 'Momma got a new baby and kicked me to Santa Fe' ;) haha.  I love and miss her sooooo much! She is amazing!!! I cherish the time I had there.  While saying goodbyes I realized how much those people have become my people, how that area is a home to me.  I can't tell you how much we love those people! We came into a dead area and made it home and family.  But I have a year left, and to be honest, I have a feeling I'll be back around there soon enough. :) There aren't many areas for spanish sisters.  Right now that is one of 4.  Sister Newbold (going home next august) is training a brand new Sister Jarman in Anthony, New Mexico down south as well, and then Sister Cope is training a brand new Sister Holland in Rio Rancho, New Mexico.  Sister Cope and Sister Good go home the transfer after next in January.  My companion is Sister Knight from Virginia.  She is AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) I love her so much.  She goes home March or April.  She is awesome and SO enthusiastic!
It's been a great first few days.  Elder Zivic left us with a commitment, a 40 day fast from things holding us back from being our very best selves.  It's been an absolutely amazing experience and I would recommend it to you.  It's truly changed my life.  As I began, everything I put on my paper to leave behind became very prevalant and hard to leave behind, but now as I've worked harder at perfecting it, I am SO absolutely grateful for it.  I've never felt more clean, more closer to the Savior.  I love my Savior.  I love this work.  I love Santa Fe.  I am excited to continue working my hardest.  I love you all and you are in my prayers. 
I want you to know you've been on my mind and in my prayers constantly.  I pray we will keep trusting God in all we do.  Heartache comes when we lose that trust in Him.  Don't lose it.  Keep working hard.  Lose the fear and keep the faith.  I know you've been through much.  I want you to know that I know with all my heart your Heavenly Father loves you and knows you. He doesn't leave you alone and there is a purpose for every stage and trial in our lives.  Find the purpose. 
I love you all so much! Keep being strong and know I am here for you!
Love,
Hermana Jardine

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Santa Fe Here I Come . . .

So........ I have transfer news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) I leave for santa fe in the morning!!! (so, haha, if you could send my boots, white & purple peacoats, and maybe some thick tights, gloves and scarves) :D It's gonna be cold!!!! I will miss it here SO very much!!! These people have become my people. I love them so much. I know I'll be back though.


I was thinking about the signifigance of the spanish names of my areas and I think they define it fairly well. Socorro, literally means "to succor" in spanish, like in the scriptures, but it also refers to 'relief' in relief society. Where as Santa Fe literally means holy faith. I can't think of a better way to describe my time here as relief. These people have been a relief to me during my hardest times and I am so grateful to help them with relief from life by sharing the gospel. I've seen so many incredible people change and become even more amazing. I can't begin to describe the many people I've seen change their lives and come to love. I love it here. Santa Fe will take faith, I don't know anything about the people, weather, or the future. But I know who holds it and I will follow Him in faith. I am excited to see what it holds. :)

I want to share with you the greatest miracle of the week, though it wasn't my own. We witnessed so many, but this story is one that changed my life. The Miranda family.

A year and a half ago, Elder Pearson was in this area and found the Miranda family by knocking on doors. They started teaching them but they weren't very interested. However, their 18 year old daughter became very interested and over time wanted nothing more than to be baptized. However due to medical issues that came up, they just couldn't meet with her and then he got transferred. Other Elders tried visiting their family but never got through. At the same time I got here, Elder Pearson got transferred back. When he and Elder Zeitner went to visit the Miranda family, they found them completely changed. Their 18 year old daughter had died of Kidney failure. And they were broken and ready. They wanted more than anything to be with her forever. And they were overjoyed with the fact that she can still be baptized since she wanted it so badly. That is the goal, the temple. They are one of the best families in our ward. And after recieving the priesthood, Brother Miranda was able to baptized Sister Miranda yesterday after church. It was absolutely incredible. We're going to say goodbye to them today and I will miss them so much. What an incredible miracle.

I can't tell you how much I love these people and will miss them. Yesterday to say goodbye to me, less active members came to church that haven't been in YEARS and so many of our investigators! Most importantly they made good friends and will keep coming. I know I was here for a reason, and I know I'm leaving now for a reason. I will miss them with my whole heart and always think of them. I love these people. They truly are my people. I will miss my home in Horizon City/Socorro Texas.

I KNOW my mission call came from my Heavenly Father. I KNOW He lives and directs this work. I am and forever will be grateful for my time here. I love these incredible people.

I love you all. You are constantly in my prayers and I couldnt' love you more.

Se Fuerte,

Con mi amor,

Hermana Jardine

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Man!
I can't even begin to describe how I feel right now.  I love you all so much.  Thank you for your support!
I'm emailing a day late because we had Zone Conference yesterday where Elder Claudio Zivic of the first quorum of 70 and his wife instructed the Las Cruces, El Paso and Mount Franklin zones. It was absolutely incredible.  Elder Zivic chose just a few people he wanted to interview and spend time with before and I was somehow one of the ones he picked.  I am honored. He is absolutely incredible and I am honored to call him my friend! The interview was all in spanish.  He is learning english, he and his wife are from Argentina.  It was incredible! To know and understand and speak freely in the language.  And I felt as though I was spending time with the prophet, his office is across from Thomas S Monson's in Salt Lake and he told us all hello from him.  But you could just FEEL it, it was like being able to spend 20 minutes with the Savior, and I am honored to have been worthy of such an event.  I felt so clean, pure, and honored to be a servant of the Lord.
He greeted me by name and the first question he asked was how you are all doing, especially with Dad's situation.  He gave his regards and condolences and promised so many incredible blessings, and I can FEEL them.  Our family is so strong.  He then asked questions about the work and myself I am grateful I've worked hard and been worthy so I was able to feel clean and answer as I did.  We talked about so many incredible things.  It was incredible.  As I stood up to leave he shook my hand, looked me in the eye and promised certain special things equal to my patriarchal blessing.  It was absolutely the most amazing experience of my life.  I love him, I love my prophet, I love my savior, I love this work!! I LOVE this language and people, and am honored to do good things without it and them throughout my life!
After the interviews we were able to be instructed by Elder Zivic and his sweet wife and President and Sister Miller.  I love them all so much! I have never felt so edified in my life!! It was great.  Elder Zivic was very attentive, spoke right to our hearts and involved us in the teachings.  At one point he called on Sister Good and I (the only sisters south of Albuquerque and in all three zones) to role play in front of everyone.  It was scary but incredible! I'm not sure where the spanish came from.  I love this work!!! It was so great to spend time with them, eat lunch with them and mingle.  I love our leaders and our zones.  I am in the best mission in the world!  In parting, he shook my hand again and by name promised the same blessings.  It felt as though my Savior was speaking to me.  
I know I'm of worth, I know I have work to do here, and I am honored to be here.  I love my family so much! This situation has only made us stronger and love each of you more than I possibly thought I could.  I respect and admire each of you! I love my life, I love this gospel and more than anything I love my Heavenly Father and Savior Jesucristo.  I have never been happier or felt more faith.  There are good things ahead.  
This week was a great week.  We've become not only 100% obedient solely by the letter but spirit of the law.  We've stepped up and become to best missionaries we can be and miracles are around us.  I cannot even begin in the slightest to share all of them.  I love these families, I love this work, I would not rather be anywhere doing anything else at this time.  I miss and love you all.  Thank you so much for your prayers and support.  I pray for you constantly and will keep working hard so we can all be blessed and bless those around us.  Please keep writing! That means more than anything. I love you all so much.

Love,
Hermana Jardine

P.S. THANK YOU FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES!!!!! You guys are absolutely amazing.  I love you so much and you all mean the world to me.  I am the most blessed person in the world!

P.S. Send Elder Milnes address! I need to send him a letter! Tell them all hello and thank you!

P.S. If you could send some of my colder clothes that would mean a lot! It's cooling off here, okay, well, 70's isn't cold, but it is for here! :) That would mean a lot though, thank you.  Also, if you could send me some smalls Carinessa Garments that would mean a lot! 

Did you ever get the souvenier package I sent? I love you all so much and you are always in my prayers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE YOU!

Sunday, September 26, 2010

 My dear family,
Once again, my heart goes out to you this morning. I want you to know how much I love you, pray for you and am HERE for you during this hard time. I know these days will be hard, but they will change our lives. For better or worse.  Please seek for better. I love you.
Yesterday we had the incredible opportunity to all attend a session at the Albuquerque temple. It was quite the trek, but it strengthened me more than I can say.
Go to the temple.   Whether you can go in, or sit on the grounds.  Seek peace there. It reminds us of the big picture and will bring you peace.
Go to the temple.
Sister Good's been having a hard time with some things and because of how things have been, President Miller asked to give the both of us a blessing while there. I love him and Sister Miller so much.  I can't tell you what a strength they've been.  That blessing calmed my heart. Being in the temple, hearing those words.  I pray for you to find the same answer for yourself: it WILL all be okay. I know it. In the blessing he stated this time will SANCTIFY (look up sanctify) our family.  Cleanse, refine and unify us. I know that that is true.  I have never respected nor loved each of you more than I do know for going through all of this.  You are so strong, being so unified and selfless in helping one another.  It's changing each of you. Whether you see it or not, in each of your letters I can see it.  You are stronger better people. 
On the way home in the car we watched the Emma Smith movie.  I cannot tell you how much I learned from it.  About enduring and enduring well the trials that beset us.  How much she went through. How much she lost.  And how strong she was. 
One message I got from it was a line she stated. 
Sometimes fear screams so loudly it almost drowns out our faith. That is life.  It is incredibly incomprehensibly hard sometimes, but I plead with you to lose the fear and keep the faith.  Strength isn't something we have, it's something we choose.  Choose to be strong.  You already have been.  I am so proud of you.  And no matter WHAT happens, what pains you have gone and will go through, D&C 121:7-9..... It will ALL be for your good.  Thy days are known and shall NOT be numbered less.  He is with you.
Pray.
Tell him your pains, frustrations, heartache and hopes.
Pray.
I have recieved so much comfort and I know he is seeking to console you as well.
I love you.
Sister McDermed passed away on Sunday after a year long battle to what began as liver cancer.  We're singing at her funeral the day after tomorrow.  It's been so humbling, so leveling.  We've come to love them so much! It's been strange going through that situation with this family I love so much.  And realizing how much I love each of you.  What you're going through.  We did something this week with them that was more powerful than anything I've ever felt.
Can I extend a challenge to you? Promise me....
Get the Reflections of Christ:Another Testament of Jesus Christ DVD from Deseret book
(It's the second one, when you're done with it eventually send it for my birthday or christmas, that's all I really need. But please, watch it first..)

**Please, pick a night and for family night watch the SLIDE SHOW on it**
Please.
I'm there with you.
And so is He. Your Savior is there, He is real.  What will YOUR embrace be like?
I want you to know He lives.  That the atonement itself is REAL! He hurts when you hurt, and is constantly seeking to embrace and comfort you.  There IS life after death.  This life is merely a test! And IF we endure it well, we WILL be exalted on high! We will be with our family friends and loved ones forEVER.  There is SO much peace and joy ahead!!! But we must go through the sorrrows to give it contrast.  With out pain there truly is no happiness.
I know this gospel is true with all my heart. Keep being strong.
We had SO many incredible miracles this week! So many doors we knocked on with people ready. So many falling into our laps! I KNOW this gospel is true, many are enduring hardships and seeking to find the truth, the purpose of life, that comfort. 
One such miracle is Hermana Soto.  Last week, we were early to an appointment and felt we should knock on a door, so we did.  Hermana Soto answered busy cooking dinner for a bunch of kids and asked if we could come back the next day.  We didn't think much of it, but when we returned, I was floored.  The second we entered the house there was SO much peace.  The spirit was so strong.  She was incredible. We all hardly said anything, just experienced it together.  As we bore testimony of God's love for HER, she broke down into tears.  I have never seen someones heart so full, of heartache and hope.  She's raising 6 kids on her own and has been through more heartache and abuse than we know. I know the gospel can be her anchor.  She prayed and we all cried.  The spirit was so strong.  I KNOW Heavenly Father loves HER so much!!!! I can't wait to see her again tonight and help her on the path to change her life.
The gospel is the good news that can heal souls.
It has healed mine.
Please let it heal yours.

I love you all more than I can say.
You are in my heart thoughts and prayers.

Please keep being strong.

Love your baby girl,
Hermana Lindsay Jardine

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

I Got You Referral



Buenas! Como estan mi querida familia?
How are you all doing? I know it's been a hard time but I hope you are all doing well. You all show so much faith and I feel closer to all of you during this hard time. Don't you worry about me :) I'm doing just fine! ;) I have never had a stronger testimony of our Savior, the atonement or the power of the priesthood. The thursday before you told me, I had been really sick all week.  I caught a flu bug and couldn't keep anything down, combined with that and the heat, I got pretty dehydrated.  It had been going on too long, so we went to district meeting and my District Leader Elder Pearson gave me a blessing. I know it is in large a part of why I'm still here... and helped me to keep moving forward.  The blessing stated that this time for me being sick was a time to prepare for the things to come.  That there was a trial ahead that would be harder than any I've ever had to face, and that only through prayer would I recieve the strength to overcome it.  It went on and talked about the work God needs me to do here, now.  That I need to be strong. When the blessing finished we all felt kind of confused.  Ha. I mean, the work is hard, rejection is hard, spanish is hard, but I couldn't imagine any of that being so hard I couldn't feel that puedo press forward. But I felt the spirit so strong and knew Heavenly Father had a purpose.  I went home and wrote down everything and we tried to get better and go to our appointments.  The next morning, we were in the middle of our studies when President Miller called. All he said is that he wanted me to call home, that there was important news Dad wanted to share with me and though it would be hard, they were there for me and loved me. I have to admit, it took me five full minutes before I could dial that familiar number.  I couldn't even guess what was going on, my hands just shook. That was the hardest moment of my life. But I know it will be okay. I tried to just be strong and keep working, which is what I know I need to do and am doing. :) Some time later though, when it finally sunk in.  I was going through my own Gethsemane.  It was so hard being away, not being able to help, go through all of this with you, or even just call or hug you.  It truly tested my faith.  I remember flipping open my journal and seeing the entry again, the words of the blessing. I have never prayed like that before in my life!
And I am here to tell you that I KNOW God lives! I KNOW he hears and answers our prayers.  I KNOW my Savior suffered for ME.  And when absolutely no one else in the world could be there or understand, He did. He was with me. Just as surely as though I could feel the prints in His hands and feel His embrace I KNOW He lives!!! I KNOW there is nothing to fear. For HE guides our lives. :) And death is nothing scary.  He is waiting with outstretched arms for all of us to one day call us home.  And He is guiding us know. I love you so much my dear family.  I know I cannot understand what it is like for you at home.  What trials and fears you are facing. But I KNOW you are not alone. PRAY. Please stay close to your Heavenly Father and feel His nearness. There IS a purpose for all of this. ALL of this. I challenge you and myself to continue to see the blessings. I love you all so very much. And thank you to all those showing such love and support to our family.  I feel showered with blessings. I am in awe at the gratitude and testimony I feel. I love you all so much!
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MOM AND DAD!!!!!!!!!!! :) I am so happy for you!!! I am also so very proud of you.  I've said it before and I will say it again. One of the things I admire the both of you for the most is your relationship.  In all my life I can never remember ONCE where you cut each other down or spoke disrespectfully to one another. There have been disagreements and hard times, but your respect for each other has been an incredible example for me.  I love and admire you both so much. I am honored to call you my parents. They say children pick their parents, and whether it's true or not, I want you to know if I could, I would have picked you. I love you both so much! Thank you for all you do!
And happy birthday coming up Mom!!!!!! :) If you could name one thing for your birthday what would you want? Don't worry too much about mine. Honestly, the only thing I can think of is the Reflections of Christ: Another Testament DVD & music cd (ask Hna Good's mom).  I LOVE that and it helps so much with teaching!!! Other than that, more spanish church CD's would be awesome.... thats all I can think of. Thank you so much for all you do. I love you and hope you have a great day today!! Take some time for just the two of you, okay?? :)
Well, I have seen so many miracles this week! But I want to share one.
The first is Luis. Parker Jeppesen could tell the first part of this story better than I could. :) But Luis lives down here (a stones throw from the border) in a town in our ward boundaries called San Elizario.  He drives semi's for a living as many do around here. And apparently, a few weeks ago one of his loads was to be dropped off at none other than Andersen Seed & Feed. :) Which is where Luis met Parker.  Luis was interested in finding out more about the LDS church and spent some time in the Logan Tabernacle where he talked with some missionaries and recieved a book of mormon. While in the store, he got talking with Parker and found out he lives in my mission boundaries (little did you know my WARD boundaries) and Parker took down his information and gave it to me. I have never been so shocked at a letter! Ha. I about fell off my bed!!!
Well, the continuation.... We gave good old Luis a call and WOW! He is awesome!!! He's been back and forth with work for the past few weeks so we didn't have the chance to meet him but got to call him every few days and really get to know him. Man, that guy has been through so many trials!!! Even just in the past few weeks!! He finally texted us to let us know he was on his way home and then was faced with trial after trial, including a wallet lost, a blown tire, getting pulled over a few times, places to drop loads being closed and so on. MAN! But we prayed for him and he was so grateful to make it back!!! Man I wish I could tell you or even I could understand all he's been through. He's confided in us so much and we've become good friends. He really admired Parker's small act of service, a free coke on the house. It really showed him there are good people in the world and the past week he's had so much faith!!! Well he FINALLY got home Saturday night and we talked to him about plans for this week. We invited him to church but he said he might not make it because of other things he had to do. Anyway, yesterday morning, being fast sunday, I chose to fast that He would come to church.  Like in my email last week, I know I need to hope more for good things, for the best in people, situations and in myself.  Well, miraculously, I was listening in testimony meeting when Elder Pearson got my attention and pointed to a man who had just snuck in the back. Luis. How's THAT for a miracle?! The first time we MET was at church! :) What an incredible guy! We're teaching his family tonight and are having a birthday party for his birthday thursday! :) What an incredible guy. Thanks for the referral Park ;)
Anyway... there is so much more I want to share, so many more miracles but I'm out of time. I want you all to know I love you so much. You are in my prayers and I will write soon. Keep being strong and working hard.
I love you.
Hermana Jardine
Pictures:
Mexican Border (fence)
Typical...
Socorro Skies















Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Buenas familia!

Como estan? It's so good to hear from you and hear things are going well!! Dad I'm so glad you are feeling better. Hang in there and take care of yourself! Mom thank you for being strong and loving while going through so much! Renny you're in COLLEGE!!! I can't believe it! :) I'm so proud of my baby sis! Have fun and ENJOY it! I'm so proud of you!! All the people here are so jealous of your beautiful blonde locks!! :) Every time I show them a picture they gasp! Tay I can't believe you are a SENIOR!! You are so grown up!!!
How does it feel?! You are so gorgeous and talented! I'm so glad you're liking dental assisting and doing so good!! How's REACH? Dillbob!! How's my little man?! You excited to get back to school? Are you starting the REACH program? You'll have so much fun! How is it havin Kyle so close!? I bet you love it!! :) How was your week!! Write me a letter bud! I miss you!! :) Thanks for all the bracelets too!! The little hispanic girls here LOVE them!! You better be careful or you'll have lots of girlfriends when you grow up! ;)
 
This week has been kind of scarier with Juarez but they're keeping it under control.  I always feel safe and know that if we be smart and 100 percent obedient we'll be fine. :) This is Heavenly Father's work and it will go forth. I feel honored to be working in this area.  THIS field IS white and ready to harvest! There is so much work to be done every day we hardly know where to start!! I love it here!! (Dad I would love to hear more about the history of this area if you ever get time.  It's something I've been thinking about a lot. )
This week was ABSOLUTELY incredible!! I can't even believe it! It was full of so many miracles!! We've been in a training conference for the mission all week in different areas like las cruces and downtown el paso.  Normally it would only be for the zone leaders and district leaders, but as Hermana Good was pink washing and training she was able to come.  And since there are no other sisters down here for me to be with, I got to come. It was incredible!! :) I LOVE all our elders and my mission president! It was great!!! We had little time at the end of everyday to actually hold appointments but when we did and applied what we learned it worked miracles!!! We found four investigators in four hours!! We're meeting with them again tonight. I can't wait to see the work progress.  This week we're going to hit it hard and give it our all. I know so many good things are going to come.
Our goal has been rebuilding the relationship with the missionaries and wards as apposed to how it was left.  And re-activating and strengthening all those who were members but have fallen away.  Wow. What an absolute miracle.  Yesterday EVERY single family we've been working with was at church. ALL of them. All it took was mostrando un poco de amor. I want to talk of one family in particular.  The McDermeds. I love them with all my heart.  Sister McDermed grew up in Juarez and was a strong member of the church with her husband.  Last year she was diagnosed with cancer, and they've been fighting, but she's almost gone.  Their family's taken a hard blow from it.  Her daughter is married with three kids, but between trying to be home to help, both of them losing their jobs, they were at their ropes end, and church wasn't a priority.  We've been going over lots, to try to strengthen them and show them we're thinking of them.  Brother McDermed has wanted us to meet her so bad, but she's always asleep, and just about gone.  You can tell his heart is breaking for his family.  And he's worn out.  The other night, relatively late after dark, we both felt we just needed to visit them.  We went over to Kristian (their 11 year old daughter) in the living room folding clothes and could hear arguing, two crying little ones (2 and a new born) and Sister McDermed moaning with pain. They were all at their ropes end. Finances were gone, as was composure.  We talked with Kristian, helped her and prayed with her.  That innocent prayer from an 11 year old broke and changed my heart.  I love her so much. We all just hugged and cried on the floor, knowing it would be okay.  And it is! God provides.  We came back the next day to help clean and do what we could.  The family felt strengthened though the situation hadn't changed much.  Sister McDermed was actually awake! We were able to sing her favorite hymns for her and feel the love and spirit in that room. And for the first time in a LONG time, they ALL came to church! They told us today that Sunday night they went home and decided it had been too long, and for the first time in a long time were able to study and pray together as a family.  Even though the situation was the same, THEY changed.  THEY moved closer to God and he blessed them.  Today they were miraculously blessed with finances and support from those around them. There is so much peace and love in that home.
 
WE bring it. God keeps it. Ether 12:6 tells us it is AFTER the trial of our faith that the blessings come.  We are pushed to our limits to learn! But Heavenly Father won't leave you stranded.  Turn to Him and I KNOW he will embrace you with open arms with whatever you are facing.  But YOU must turn to Him.  I pray you will.  So many blessings are in store for you. :) When you are at the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on! :) I'm praying for you.
 
I love you all so much, with all my heart. Thank you for all your love and support.  Most of all for helping, loving and lifting one another. Nothing brings me more happiness than that.  You are constantly in my prayers, and though I wish I could be with you.  I KNOW this is where God wants me to be.  With all my heart.  I feel it EVERY second of EVERY day.  I'm supposed to be here. I love this land. I love these people.  I love this gospel, and being able to see it change others lives.  Most of all I'm honored to be that tool to bring so much happiness to others lives.  Thank you for helping me get here.  For being examples for me. I love you. I love my Savior. I know this work is His.  I KNOW He lives. I know He loves me.  I know there is good to be found by His hand in every day.
Find it.
 
I love you,
 
Hermana Jardine

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Tongue... bones... and peppers

Hola familia!
How has your week been!! I didn't have much time to read your emails but I took pictures of them to read throughout the week! Dad, I hope you are feeling better!! I'm sorry you had to go to the hospital! Not a fun experience. Hang in there! I'm thinking of you.  School starts soon doesn't it?! I'm excited for you all!!! Dillon's a big kid at Greenville! I can't believe it!!! Are you excited bud!? I'm sorry I've been behind on letters, we've spent a our p-days mostly cleaning our apartment.  But I will send one to you today and do lots better this week! Lauren are you ready to start college!? Utah state will be so fun for you!!! :) You will do so great!!! Hang in there and take a breather and enjoy the journey too! :) The end of the road isn't as worth it unless you enjoy walking the path.  Taylor how are you! Thank you both for your emails.  I miss you all more than anything!! You excited to be a Senior!! LIVE IT UP!!!! You only get to be a Senior once, make as many memories as you can!!!
Well this week has been AWESOME!!! To start off, as for weird things I've eaten this week, I've added tongue, some soup full of bones and mystery meat, and my first serrano and jalapenos.  HOT!!!! Holy cow is my mouth having to adjust to it.  Haha, they all laugh at me because something normal for them is BURNING for me, I've never drank more water in my life haha. :) But I love it. Someday I'll no longer be a gringa! ;)  They do say the peppers help with the spanish. ;)
I cannot believe the people here. I love them so much!! They are so absolutely humble and loving.  Those who have absolutely nothing are those most willing to give.  So many have opened their doors to us and fed us when they hardly have enough for their family.  I feel guilty sometimes.  I love these people so much.  I'm so glad they will be close enough to visit often even after I get home.
We are finally organized, clean, and hitting the pavement! :) Mom thank you for the package of supplies!!! It was greatly appreciated.  I had to use some funds to get our apartment there, but we are FINALLY clean and livable :) haha. We have been working hard this week and have atleast contacted every name on our lists from the bishops (our english branch was made a ward!), ward members and the stacks of referrals found in our apartment.  We have come to truly love and know our wards, brought many back to church and are now starting to do more tracting.  Or area isn't extremely big and we're hoping if we get to stay here long enough we can tract every street.  I absolutely love it here!! And I love this work!!
It's been coming along so well!!! We have two companionships of Elders in our district and last week between each of them 4 people were baptized and we were able to help with! It was so great!!! I love this work!!!
We've had so many miracles this week I can't even think of which one to write about.  The work is coming along and half the time it comes to us! For instance, this week we've been working a lot with the landlord and maintenance workers to clean our apartment.  One of which, Armando (50's) has been there to help with every need we have had and some we didn't notice.  He is so kind and helpful and patient with my Spanish.  He is respectful in all he does and took the time to learn our names.  From being in our apartment he knows who we are and what we do.  He is a Jehovah's Witness but he has never been pushy or aggressive.  The other day as we were leaving and he was spraying for cockroaches, I was thanking him for all he did before we left when he surprised me by asking for a Book of Mormon.  I was so surprised and immediately got one for him.  We were able to talk about it for a few minutes and then we had to leave for an appointment.  We talked to him today again and he's been reading it.  He is one of the best people I know and is so kind and giving to all those around him.  I'm praying for him.
Another experience this week, as we were pulling into the church parking lot for district meeting, the Elders were parked and out talking to a man in the parking lot.  They referred him to us, since he's in our area and we set up an appointment before he left.  After he did, they explained to us the situation.  This man found the church on his own and asked for the missionaries to visit him. We're excited to meet them.
The field is white and ready to harvest.  I know that is true.  Every day we face so much rejection, but when you find those that are ready, they are READY.  And I have absolute faith that even those who aren't ready, with enough time patience and love will come around. I have met so many absolutely incredible people.  I wouldn't rather be anywhere else.
Keep strengthening those around you and treating others as the Savior would.
I KNOW this church is true.  I am honored to be a part of this great work! I know I have the power to do so much more and I'm so grateful for the time to do so.
I love you all so much.
Be strong and remember who you are, who loves you.

Les quiero,
Hermana Jardine

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Pinkwashing. A BIG HELLO FROM THE BORDER







Hola mi Querida Familia!
 I'm here, I'm Safe and I LOVE it! :) First off, let me apologize, my english is getting sloppy! I'm in that wierd transition where I can't quite speak spanish but I can't speak enligh anymore, jaja.
We flew in and spent a night at the mission home in Albuquerque and got to see the temple.  I love President and Sister Miller! They are great people!!! :) Then Tuesday morning was transfers!! I met my trainer, Sister Good from Idaho Falls.  She lives up to her name! :) I love her so much.  I'm her first non-native spanish companion and she is a pro! :) She's hilarious and we love laughing and having adventures but know how to work. I love her. :) We were assigned to 'Pinkwash' (Which means they are sending sisters into a former 'Elder' area.  And we are both being transferred to a new area together.  Sister Good came from Colorado and Santa Fe.) in Socorro Texas and loaded up our gear to head south, about 5 hours south of Albuquerque, just south of El Paso, Texas.
Lets just say pinkwashing was fun. :) I have NEVER been more grossed out by an apartment. Imagine the worse and you have it. :) But we've loved the adventure. Piles of dirty dishes, laundry and mystery items.  Tarantulas, cochroaches and frogs, all dead AND alive.  Mold.... you name it. :) Ha. It's been fun turning it around! :)

We live in a little city called Horizon City and we LOVE IT! :) Wow it is another world down here! We are DEFINATELY the minority.  EVERYONE speaks spanish.  The other day when we were in walmart I counted ONE caucasion other than us and it was packed! It's helped with spanish so much! We think, eat and breathe spanish! The street signs, billboards and EVERYTHING are in spanish.  I'll attatch some pictures. I feel like I'm back in Guatemala. I love it! :)
We are literally minutes away from the border.  I see the city lights of Juarez, Mexico out my bedroom window every night.  One day we got lost and almost ended up in Mexico jaja. :)
We cover an English branch, the "Socorro" branch (which is mostly a hispanic bilingual group) and a Spanish ward, the "Mission Trail Ward".  I love the wards already! Everyone is so close and kind.
When we got here, our area book was empty, and similar to our apartment. We had piles of referrals given by the church untouched from previous missionaries, investigators lost, and converts that have gone inactive.
We started organizing and working with the Bishops in our wards to turn things around.  Our first goal was to get to know ward members and strengthen the unity.  And to bring back those who have gone inactive.  I have never seen so many miracles work so quickly.  We spent all last week visiting families and contacting referrals.  This sunday, almost all of our inactive friends came to church. And we love and know our wards already.  And they have given us so many referrals! There is too much work and not enough time in the day!!! I love it! How incredible! I'm so excited and honored to be part of this work. I'll tell you a quick story.
The other day we contacted the the Mora family and were trying to get them to come to church. They were amazing people and such a strength to us! Immediately after we said the closing prayer, Sister Mora gave us the name of her neighbor to contact.  With no more information than she used to be friendly and isn't anymore, that she's probably going through a hard time.
We went to her trailer immediately after and were amazed at what we found.  Belen German was a former strong member.  But she's been gone so long she wasn't even on any records we have.  Her daughter Brenda split up with her husband in California and came to live with her mom bringing her two little boys. At first they seemed busy, but we showed them genuine love and concern and I'm amazed at how things changed. They were tired, stressed, and told us more of the problems in their lives, including other children gone astray, issues in Juarez (SCARY city).  You could feel their hearts aching.  The spirit was so strong as we testified of the gospel.  I was as bold as I have ever been and wanted with every bit of my heart to help them.  I helped calm the three year old and talked with him about the gospel and the atmosphere changed.  They want to do and be better. They just stressed.  I know with every inch of my soul that the gospel can change us from the inside out. It can help us with every problem we face!!! I am amazed at how it changed them in one night. I invited them to come to church.  And they commited, and in turn invited US over for dinner.  I have never felt the spirit so strong, nor fallen in love with people instantly, in a little third world trailer on the border of Mexico.
I love this work.  With all my heart I know this is where Heavenly Father wants me to be.  I will work hard and give it my whole heart.
I am excited to see the progress we can make.
I love you all so much and you are in my prayers every night.
Please be strong, thank you for your letters.  Nothing means more to me than that.

les quiero,
Hermana Jardine

Pictures:
Goodbye MTC!!

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

PS from Poster.

Sister Jardine leaves the MTC this coming Monday.
Which means:

This week will be the last week you can get letters to her through the MTC.

Both addresses are listed below and to the right.

Take a few moments and WRITE HER a Letter!!!! :)
I know She LOVES to hear from each one of you!


IT WILL SERIOUSLY MAKE HER ENTIRE WEEK!!

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Hola Familia!

Here it is! My last p-day at the MTC. I can't believe it!!! I fly out monday morning! I meet at the travel office at 5 am then head up to the airport.  My flight is around seven something I think? So I should be calling between six and seven in the morning? Sorry :S I land in Albuquerque at 10 am and then I'm off!! :) It all begins!!! I can't wait to hear all of you! :)

I will admit, I will miss the MTC. I have come to love it here so much!!! I can't explain it! I've made so many wonderful friends and it has become HOME to me! I love it!

So last week for p-day was the most incredible day here yet!  We went to clean the temple and instead got to put together and install the new chandeliers.  Wow. There aren't words.  What a sacred opportunity.  How beautiful.  It was something I will absolutely never forget.  Being in those rooms made me realize how precious they are.  How much I want a temple marriage someday and how I want to live worthy to return to live with God and all my loved ones, especially you. I am so grateful to have an eternal family.

This week has changed in me a desire to change lives and do missionary work.  We focused on the hardest part for me, commitments.  It's easy for me to show love and hard for me to be bold. 
But this week I learned "Overbearance is Boldness without Love".  That is my goal.  It's something I'm working on. And so, today I want to extend a commitment to you, my dear family, and anyone else reading this e-mail.

Will you take time TODAY to genuinely pray?

The most distinct memory I have of prayer is one that Lauren probably doesn't even remember, but it's always stuck with me.  Her first year of girl's camp, we all went to bearlake and I had the opportunity to stay in the same tent as her.  One particular night it was pouring with rain, thundering and lightening, the wind was crashing at our tents.  None of us could sleep and we were all a little scared.  Lauren, her cute 12 year old self, in her timid faithful voice said we should offer a prayer. 
She said it, with absolute faith, truly TALKING with Her Heavenly Father.  Calmness filled our tent and though the circumstances took time to change, our hearts did instantly.  Her faith gave us all peace.
We shouldn't call upon God only when we are in desperate need.  He is your father in Heaven.  We can't have a conversation with Him unless we talk with Him.  We have time, make time, He gave you time. He gave you life. 
Stay close to Him.  Pick a time that works for you and pour out your heart to Him.  He is so much nearer than you realize.

If nothing else, this is what I've learned most at the MTC, prayer.
I've finally learned how to communicate with my father in heaven.  He is so near, every minute. I can feel Him behind me, encouraging me.  I can feel His presence as a real person.  He IS real! He loves you! Talk you Him.
Will you pray, today?

I promise you he hears you and will bless you.
Just as with Lauren, the circumstances may take time to change or may not change.  Prayer is aligning our will to God's, expressing our fears and concerns and letting him comfort guide and teach us.
I beg with all my heart for you to pray.
You are in my prayers constantly as well.
I love you with all my heart, I can't wait to talk to you.


Hermana Jardine

P.S. Lauren and Taylor!!! Send Elder Clipp and Tipton a letter back! It'll make their day! You have to send it by tomorrow though cause they leave Monday as well!!
-I see Tanner Milne ALL the time! What a sweet kid!!! He was so excited the first day he got here!! He's an excellent missionary!!! Haha. He was so happy! I almost hugged him but that was the best handshake ever! What an amazing family!!
-I will send a package home at the end of the week with some stuff I won't need in the field and some stuff for the fam!!! Including letters from me and Sister Carter! ;) And Mckall's scripture case!
-JJ I'm preparing the MTC FOR YOU AND HAVE A NOTE WAITING!!!!! :)
-Jamie thanks for your sweet letters!!! I love them and they encourage me so much!!!!!
-KOLBY FALOR CONGRATS ON THE MISSION CALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) I'm so excited to speak spanish with you! I'm so proud of how far you've come in the last two years and can only imagine where the next two will lead us!!!
-Maddy Thanks for your letter I love you!!!!
-Tell Brittany I LOVE HER!!!!!! I need her address!!!

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Hola Familia!
Como fue su semana? How was your week? I haven't heard from you in a while I can imagine its busy! I hope you are all doing well! :) You are always in my prayers and I love you so much! When does school start? How's summer going? Dad's ward? I love you all and wish I could give you a BIG hug!! :)
So sorry it's so early! ;) Nothin like laundry and emailing at 6:30 AM. Today is p-day but it's going to be busier than any other day of the week! We're cleaning the temple today and teaching our investigator so it's lots of studying and hard work! But on top of that, we're about doubling our Zone size today!!! :) We're getting TWO new districts! Bringing our branch size up from 36 to 60.  Needless to say we've got a lot to do today!! :) I LOVE welcoming the new missionaries and helping them love the MTC. I love it! :)
SPEAKING of new missionaries!!!!! Sister Carter is doing AMAZING! :) She is a strength to ME! I can't believe how lucky I am to get to see her so often!!! Last p-day my companions and I were studying outside when I saw little Kyle Carter (not so little anymore)'s head bobbing up and down at the crosswalk.  I got to watch as mandy said her goodbyes and walked towards me.  She didn't see me until she was right in front of me and we just froze! I've never had such an amazing hug in all my life!! We were both crying and laughing!! I felt like the sons of Mosiah reunited again!! :) I got to wave at Steph Roger and Kyle from the distance.  It was so good. So incredible! I feel so blessed to have been there right when she got there!!! On top of that I can't believe how lucky I am to see her all the time! It's SO rare!!! But we have ALL the same meal times, gym times, P-day, and she lives 3 doors down from me!!! :) We get to spend time together everynight!! She has amazing roomates and a great companion who love her! She's doing amazing!!!! :) And we're LOVING it!!! :) I'll send pictures soon. It's so fun to think of all those times at EFY across the street and realize where we are now. What we're doing! We LOVE this week.
One thing dad asked about is what teaching is like now.  How it's changed over the years.  We had a fireside this week and I guess it's changed a lot! And STILL changing for us! They've gone away completely from memorizing anything.  They want it to be in our own words.  For a while they changed the order to talk of Christianity before the restoration but then saw how it halted progress.  That would make us hardly different from any other church.  Which we are. We're living. It's restored. It's true. I am so grateful for Joseph Smith and Thomas S. Monson.  They changed the order back and soon after came out with the Preach my Gospel program in 2004.  It's now being revised and even more changes are being made for us now.  They want us to teach even MORE in our own words and by the spririt.  To listen and help people with their individual needs. To teach them how the gospel can help them NOW.
It's so crazy to walk into an appointment having no idea what will be taught or how it will go.  But knowing you are prepared, have studied and God will direct you.  I am amazed at how incredible every appointment is! Somehow we're always able to understand the spanish and know what to say in return to help and encourage.  It is REAL!
 
I LOVE my mission!!! Its flying by too quickly! I get my flight plans this weekend. And I am anticipated to fly out on June 2nd.  I get to call from the airport so I'll let you know when in my next email!
It's going by too fast! I absolutely LOVE the MTC and all the people here!!! I will miss it SO much. But I'm so excited for the field!!!! I can't tell you how much!!! I can't believe how far we've come with teaching and the language. It's amazing and nothing makes me more happy!! I LOVE spanish!! I always have. I think back on my life and experience such as 'Wallagoop' in Kindergarden :) Nogalas Mexico on our family trip visiting Cindy, Jon & Jeralyn.  Incredible experiences with Guatemala and how it changed my life! Even the latin culture I came across in the ambulance, ER, and REACH program.  I LOVE the people. It's always been instilled in me and a feel like being here is just unfolding it.  I LOVE the language and it's coming along great!!! The gift of tongues is real!!!! I feel so blessed and lucky!!!!
My favorite scripture has become Proverbs 3:5-6.  It's become my life motto.  Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not unto your own understanding! He WILL direct your paths! But ONLY if you follow!! I can imagine times are hard sometimes.  But I love you so much family.  I feel His love for you.  Always trust in Him and guide Him! He wants to bless you!! I know He is REAL. He is THERE. The great message of the restoration and atonement is True!!! I love you so much and pray for you every day. 
Se Fuerte!!!!
Les Amo,
Hermana Jardine
 
P.S. Tell everyone thank you SO much for the letters!!! I feel so lucky to have so much incredible encouragement!!! I am sorry if I don't get many out today, I won't have much of a p-day till next week!!!
 
P.P.S.S. could you try forwarding again?
 
Thank you!!! I LOVE YOU!!! I can't wait to call you in a week and a half!!! :)
 

Monday, July 19, 2010

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Hey my favorite family :)
Mandy (or should I say Sister Carter) comes in today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) I absolutely cannot wait! It feels like Christmas! Don't worry, I WILL find her today! :) I know it has to be immensely hard on her and her family.  I love them as my own and let them know I am thinking of them and they're in my prayers as is she.  Don't worry. :) I'll take care of her and she will LOVE it!!!!! We will send you pictures soon! And we will be home before you know it! I should get my travel plands the end of next week.  I can't believe it!!! I am excited but sad to leave! I LOVE it here! Mandy will too. :)
Well, I have another companion!! :) Her name is Hermana Callie Payne and she went to high school with Mckall & Scott. She is going to Argentina.  She was in the district above us, but unfortunately everyone else recieved their visa's and left last week but her.  She has a lot of patience.  We are now the oldest district and we're a trio! :) Probably the most diverse trio when it comes to personalities :) ha. But I love it!
Our new district came in on wednesday and I LOVE them!!! They are so great! 12 elders heading to Guatemala and Chile (Don't worry, I'm gettin em excited for the best place in the world!! ;) 2nd to new mexico and home). One is even Elder Oakden from none other than Bristol Road in good ol' Logan!
Sadly though, it's been a hard week.  When they got here, I really felt like they were struggling and felt like we as a companionship should teach them as companionships and help and strengthen them through the transition.  We didn't get to the companionship that needed it most before one of our Elders went home.  He was shy, reserved and home sick.  I will forever wonder if there is something I could have said.  I KNEW someone was struggling and knew I could help.  I feel in my heart I could have.  I know his life will never be quite the same.  I will never again wait to heed a prompting.
It made me want to be a better missionary.  To those in my coming field and those around me.
I have a deadline.
But I CAN make a difference.  I wish he could have seen and felt what I do!!! He would never dream of leaving this great place or work! But I suppose it's the same with the gospel and those hidden from the truth.  I wish they could see know and feel as I do.  But all men have agency and must learn for themselves.  I cannot and would not change that.  But I CAN make a difference.  I can show, teach, lift and inspire more than I am.  I can invite.
I will better fulfill my purpose.
On Sunday we had a devotional from Jenny Oaks Baker and a visitor in the audience, her father Dallin H. Oaks.  It was ABSOLUTELY incredible!!!!!! I LOVE her! She is an incredibly talented violinist and played for us for over an hour.  There is no way or form I feel the spirit stronger than through music.  I'm moved beyond words. 
Throughout college, all those mundane days filled with hours of coursework and deadlines ahead, I remember playing her songs over and over again.  It brought a level of comfort and support no other source could.  Those lonely long hard days were instead days where I could feel the Savior encouraging me along.  To work harder, to give my best to my work.  They were days filled with satisfying work, knowing I was doing as the Savior wanted me to with all my ability. 
Through those hours and hours of hymns, faith and hard work I grew close the the Savior.  Those songs bare testimony of wirds I couldn't even begin to say.  To sit there on sunday with those songs that got me through so many hard times and helped me truly feel my Saviors love and hand in my life was an absolute honor.
Ever time I studied over the past two years I had her violin as my companion.  Those songs filled my ipod and heart, cheesy as that sounds :)
More than anything it was an hour of reflection of the Lord's hand in my life.  To see where I began that first day of college, to where I am sitting now.  God LIVES! I KNOW he's guided me and I will follow him anywhere! He is real. He is near. Moments like that reach beyond the veil for me.  How could I ever doubt?
Through those songs I felt the nearness of my Savior.  Though I had no idea what tomorrow or the next semester would bring. And those familiar tunes comforted me this week even though I don't know my future.  I don't know how many children I'll have or what my struggles will be.  When I'll marry or to who.
I don't know what I will do with my life after I serve.  I don't know what New Mexico will be like, what my mission holds.
I don't even know what tomorrow holds.
But I know who holds it.
I love my Savior with all my heart. 
I will follow Him anywhere.
I know without a doubt He LIVES! And wants me HERE.
And so I'll be here.
I love you.
Times up but I'll write more next week!
It's a busy day so sorry If not many letters get out.
I love you all!!!!
Love,
Hermana Jardine
 
P.S. Tell Jer and Heidi congrats! Jamie I got your letters and LOVE them!!!! :) I will write you so soon! JJ you will be amazing!!!!! I can't wait for you to get here! Tell Mckall I'd love to get scott's case just tell me a color!